Category: The Library
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Midnight Cancer
Midnight Cancer is a bottomless pit where voices echo around and around endlessly repeating the same prayer: oh God… Sooner or later, midnight cancer changes to morning cancer, brighter, more hopeful. Somewhere in the sun rises warm and round. Birds are singing. After a while, morning cancer melts into afternoon cancer where it hides among…
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Chemo Days
Thursday was a hard day. My body is adjusting to all the new meds I’m on with my chemo. Some of you have asked what it looks like. Here’s the rundown: I’m on three treatments. Every three weeks I go to the hospital for a chemo treatment. At home I take a chemo orally for…
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The Light Shines Through It
I recently finished reading “The Horse and His Boy” from the Chronicles of Narnia series by CS Lewis. It got me thinking… When darkness surrounds me, some days it might even feel as if it defines me—although it doesn’t really—there is misery and desperation. And yet, when Aslan bounds into it? My world becomes light…
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Beauty in the Ache
In the midst of all the chaos I have days of beauty that make me ache. I ache with the sweetness of a simple day, curled up with my Audrey for a movie together. Talks with my Brian dreaming of things we want to do, places we want to go together. Texts with my boy…
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Mustard Seeds and Mountains
One Saturday for pizza and movie night, we watched “Fellowship of the Ring” yelling “Nerd!” laughingly at each other whenever one of us would quote the movie before the quote actually came. At one point, during a hard pass, Saruman’s voiceover speaks as the fellowship climbs, “If the mountain defeats you, will you risk more…
A Spring of Joy 