A Spring of Joy

Today I fell in love with Brian’s smile all over again (he has the best smile EVER).

Today I had coffee with my mom (delectable nectar).

Today I took a huge bite of onion rings and sighed deeply (mouth-watering good).

Today I sat across the table from my hubby and my friend and I ate in a public place (instead of my bedroom at my parents’ house).

Today I looked at two little old ladies and a little old man coming into Dave’s and told Bri and Stat how that was us in 50 years (Stat was the one in the trendy sunglasses).

Today I wondered if I’d make it 50 more years (and I looked at Bri and I asked God, “please?”).

Today I went into my house for the first time in seven days for a quick visit (and it felt surreal).

Today I saw my Bear’s dimples and my Bella’s sparkly eyes (and I hated that my Ash was at school).

Today I didn’t care about the cacophony of noise (because I was with my babies).

Today I thanked my mother-in-law in person for flying out to help us (I am so blessed by her sacrifice).

Today I heard Stat propose to my son (he said “no”).

Today I watched my children say good-bye to my friend (and I hated it).

Today I listened to a Kanye West song (and actually liked it).

Today I cried buckets (again).

Today I hugged my B for a whole five seconds (five seconds of wonderful).

Today I was completely vulnerable (and it didn’t scare her away).

Today I prayed (and God answered “yes”).

Today I wished my friend, Jen, a happy birthday (and it was so good to hear her voice).

Today I video chatted with my babies (now if only butterfly kisses could be felt through my laptop).

Today I realized how much I need… no, how much I crave physical touch (it’s a literal ache in my chest).

Today I am thankful for today (because I still have today).