Heart Meltings

It’s the dimples that get me every time. That head ducks down and he smiles at me and melts my heart with his mischievousness and his sensitivity. It has been that way since I first held him in my arms six years ago. This heart melting.
He has such an easy way about him. He’s always been that way,too, coming into our world so quietly, I didn’t even know I was in labor, and I never felt the pain of contractions before I got my epidural and he quieted the moment he was in my arms. He accepted life, crying only when something was needed. He spoke early and well, using full sentences by 18 months old, but only speaking what was necessary, then moving on to laugh at the world around him in perfect delight.

He is still that way, although the world has turned out harsher for him than he had anticipated. Wearing his heart on his sleeve doesn’t help. He just wants to be happy and play.

And when he struggles, he struggles visibly, looking for help in making decisions, knowing he’s making the wrong one, then turning to make it right. And when he hurts, he still finds a quiet comfort in the arms of his mommy or daddy.

Then he smiles with those dimples. And I melt.
And he asks for birthday presents like this, “I’d like a Lego Death Star and a Ben Kenobi action figure.” quiet pause, “Oh, and some more food for Audrey to have in her kitchen set because she likes it so much.”


What kid asks for presents for his sister for his birthday?

He is such a sweet boy, always will be.

My dear, imaginative, shy, creative, pensive, energetic, funny Bear.

Some days I get scared about time changing him and reality robbing him of his imagination and sensitivity.

Then I remember.

He’ll always have those dimples.

And no matter how he changes as he grows, he’ll always melt my heart.


And every time it melts, it grows back larger than it was before.

It is the only way to hold it all in.

All this love.

Happy birthday, Bear.

7 responses to “Heart Meltings”

  1. Grandma and Grandpa Avatar
    Grandma and Grandpa

    Our children are what make the world a better place for all of us. Micah’s father, his siblings, and their families certainly do that for us. Happy Birthday Micah! So glad we got to celebrate with all of you a little early.
    Grandma and Grandpa Davis


  2. This post made me think of Sara Groves’ song “I Can’t Wait” from her Station Wagon album. Do you know it?

    When you reach the proper age
    I will teach you to read and you can turn the pages
    How to dress and tie your shoes
    Your one plus ones, and your two times two’s
    And you’ll teach me
    Of hearts and dreams
    And all the most important things
    And all that i have lost along the way
    And I can’t wait

    As you grow, I’ll show you things
    How to ride your bike and kick your legs out on the swings
    To fold your hands and bow your head
    How to say your prayers before you go to bed
    And you’ll teach me
    Of hearts and dreams
    And all the most important things
    And all that I have lost along the way
    And I can’t wait

    How do you sleep so peacefully?
    How do you trust unflinchingly?
    How do you love so faithfully?
    How do you dance so joyfully?
    Oh you’ll teach me
    Of hearts and dreams
    And all the most important (essential) things
    And all that i have lost along the way
    And I can’t
    No I can’t
    Come teach me
    Of love and dreams
    And all the most essential things
    And all that I have lost along the way
    Cause I can’t wait

    Happy birthday Micah! You are teaching all of us about the essential things!!!


  3. Grandma and Grandad Avatar
    Grandma and Grandad

    Wow! What a post and what a sweet Bear! How true Monica, how true!

    Hugs to our sweet Bear!


  4. judieyoung@hotmail.com Avatar


    You are so special!!! You give your Mother and Dad so much to be proud of. What an example you are to your brother and sister. You are loved and the most important one that loved you gave His life for you. What a love. He has changed your eternity.

    God bless you.

    I love you,
    Judie Young


  5. What a beautiful post – Happy Birthday to your sweet Bear!


  6. That is a beautiful boy you have there! My favorite part was how he asked for something for his sister. How sweet!!!


  7. Happy Birthday to your son. What a beautiful post to him – he will love reading this when he’s older.


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