Holding on to Something

It’s been one of those weeks, or rather months, or rather summers… where the grief hits like a tsunami and leaves me rolling and careening and gasping for breath as I try to comprehend what is happening around me in the lives of my loved ones and friends. Deaths, cancers, depression, loneliness, suffering, loss, surgeries, pain… every week there is a phone call that sends me reeling, and they are reeling and rolling and careening and gasping far worse than I.

This past week has been one of the hardest for me, and I’ve spent hours on the phone or sitting with friends near and far, walking through a sadness that is seeded deep. But there is one thing that comes from every phone call: the encouragement that I, that we, that the suffering ones are holding onto something. There is hope beyond what we see, because God has given us the spiritual eyes to see beyond the wave that’s hitting. We’re holding onto Him. All of us. Clinging to truth that may not be visible in the shadow of the torrent, but it’s buried in our hearts, our minds, our souls, our very being.

Jesus is worthy. Jesus is sharing in our sufferings. Jesus is grieving here holding our hearts and our lives, yet He is dancing with our loved ones in Heaven. Jesus is with us.

And in the aftermath, when we stare at the ruins around us, the carnage that has shattered our lives, we look and see clearly. We see that He is still holding us and He is the only One worthy of holding onto. There is no turning back, only walking forward, wading through the havoc, and clinging to hope. A hope that does not disappoint.

“It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are. It’s like in the great stories… The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think…I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.” (~Sam to Mr. Frodo)

(HT: 6yearmed)

4 responses to “Holding on to Something”

  1. holding onto hope and faith and the love of Jesus with you friend. I love you. thinking of you always.


  2. judieyoung41@gmail.com Avatar

    My sweet one,

    The following is truly not our thoughts nor our ways. May you be blessed as you read this from an unknown author, but we all could be the author who has gone through the dark night of the soul.


    Strange gift indeed!-a thorn to prick- to pierce into the very quick, to cause perpetural sense of pain. Strange gift! And yet, ’twas given for gain.

    Unwelcome, but it came to stay; nor could it even be prayed away, it came to fill its God-planned-place- a life-enriching means of grace.

    O much-tried saint, with fainting heart, the thorn with its abiding smart, with all its wearing, ceaseless pain, can be thy means of priceless gain.

    And so whate’re thy thorn may be, From God accept it willingly. But reckon Christ,-His life-His power To keep, in thy most trying hour.

    And sure-thy life will richer grow; His grace sufficient will bestow. And in heav’n’s morn the joy ’twill be That by His thorn, He strengthened thee.

    Love abound to you and flood you,


  3. I’m glad you were able to start writing about things… Tomorrow will finally come!


  4. For some reason as I read this I thought about those who don’t Believe or have Faith. How devastating the end of a loved one’s life must be for those who think this is all there is.


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