“Could it be Possible?”

Those were the words I barely choked out yesterday morning on the phone with my Brian.

My cell phone rang earlier in the morning, and I saw the number for my endocrinologist. I stood there. Frozen. And immediately nauseous.

“If I pick that up and answer it, the waiting will be over.”

“If I pick that up and answer it, I will know if there’s a recurrence or not.”

“If I pick that up and answer it, my world could crumple again.”

The ringing seemed to take on an insistent tone.

“When I pick this up…” my hand held it and my thumb shook, ready to slide on my iPhone. “When I pick this up, one way or another, my world will be changed.”

“Angela?” I heard her voice–the nurse who has become so familiar to me that when she calls or when I am in the office, we talk about what books we’re reading and offer new suggestions. We talk about vacations and great eating spots. We talk about life. “One of your tests…”

The nausea was overwhelming when she paused.

“Oh, wait.” she laughed her apology, “That’s a note for the doctor. I’m sorry. Okay. The results of your full body scan are negative. This is excellent news!”

I hadn’t realized I was holding my breath, and it exploded out. She laughed again, “I can see you’re relieved. So am I, dear girl. So am I.”

I thanked her. We said our good-byes. I hung up the phone.

And crumpled.

I gained my composure and called my Bri.

When I heard his voice, I crumpled again.

Another yes.

So many yeses.

Truly. God’s mercy to us is overwhelming.

“Could it be?” I choked it out, “One year. One year of no more scans? One year of no surgeries or hospitalizations? Could it be possible?”

I could hear his grin.

“It’s possible, babe.”

“Could it be? One year? One year of just routine follow-ups? Perhaps an iron infusion or two? One year? Could it be possible?”

I could tell his grin had widened.

“It’s possible, babe.”

“Oh my stars! I don’t know what to do with myself!!!!”

We laughed together.

Truly, I don’t know what to do with myself.

I know this doesn’t mean things will change overnight. I know I will wrestle with fatigue and chronic pain from past surgeries. I know I will struggle with side effects from the meds I’m on for 3 more years. I know I will have lupus flares and joint pain. I know from a physical standpoint, life won’t ever be easy for me.

But I also know that I don’t have cancer.

And that is enough for now.

“Hope itself is like a star- not to be seen in the sunshine of prosperity, and only to be discovered in the night of adversity. ”
— Charles H. Spurgeon

Thank you, those who have prayed and encouraged along the way. I am humbled by your love.

Will you praise Him with me?

He is the only One worthy.

8 responses to ““Could it be Possible?””

  1. Jumping for joy for you and your family!!! I haven’t been online as much as I usually am but am glad I read today. What glorious news!!!


  2. Praise His Holy Name! Thanks so much for sharing that with us! So glad to be praising him w/ you in this!


  3. Yay! Praising God with you!!!!

    I ‘liked’ your status on FB when you posted it, because I was at work, but I am so glad to be able to actually ‘talk’ to you here and hear the whole story!


  4. Sara-Beth Noll Avatar
    Sara-Beth Noll

    This just made my day!! What awesome news to get to read. Rejoicing with you, precious friend! and love you so much!


  5. judieyoung@hotmail.com Avatar

    My precious Angie, my adopted daughter in Him,

    I am so choked up inside praising His Name for your deliverance. I know what those calls can produce, I have been there.

    May the God of hope fill you with joy in peace in believing that you may dwell in hope through the power of the Holy Spirit. May these days we have been in battle be days that we look back on and have knowledge of our precious Saviour that shows us that “If God be for us, who can be aganist us”. “His joy is our strength.” Another battle, ANOTHER VICTORY for we are more than conquerors through Christ who loved us and gave Himself for us.

    God bless you forever,
    I love you dearly,


  6. Oh Angie…this is absolutely wonderful! I am so relieved for you. So so relieved. Have a wonderful Saturday with your beautiful family!


  7. CONGRATULATIONS! I am so happy for you and your family, and crying with joy. Way to go, strong girl. Way to go!


  8. “Another yes, so many yeses…” I love that!

    This is such wonderful happiness to hear. I can’t imagine the total peace and joy that is spreading over the Davis house right now ;D


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