Category: The Library
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The Final Yes
The weeks leading up to my surgery and following have been a drain on our family… on Brian’s and my marriage, on the children, on my parents. It is exhausting to be constantly fighting for survival–survival of us, of our hearts. Sometimes it seems survival of our very faith, even though I know that He…
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Of Yesterdays and Todays and a God Who Will Not Change
“We’re not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.” (~C. S. Lewis) The sobs came uncontrolled last night as I pounded the couch with my fist. “I hate it.” I cried to Brian. “I hate cancer. HATE IT. I hate…
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Just A Few Little Details
Tomorrow looms. My surgery is at 10:00. We will go into the hospital at 9:00. I will be in the hospital 3-5 days. I am scared. Questions constantly reel through my mind. I fear for my children, for Brian. I fear that they’ll find the cancer much worse than they think it is. It is…
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His Glory. Our Final Good.
A few weeks ago my glasses broke. Split right down the middle, so I duct taped them back together because I must have them to drive. (Yes, I duct taped my glasses. Yes, Brian made fun of me. Yes, it was hilarious.) I bought new ones. I love my new glasses. I can’t find my…
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A Small Word That’s Really Huge
Today was exhausting. Each day is, really. I wake and wonder how on earth I will do all that I want or need to do, and by the end of the day I’ve only done a bit of it, and I wonder how I’ll get up the next day and keep pushing forward. It’s an…
A Spring of Joy 