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Of Brian And BABE’s
Over the past 21 months (has it really been that long?!), my Brian has worn so many hats… father, provider, husband, nurturer, care-giver… he has been Mr. Dad and Mr. Mom to help keep our home in some semblance of order during my treatments and recovery. He has cooked meals, held babies, changed diapers, fixed lunches, done dishes, folded laundry, mopped floors, driven carpool and worked 50+ hours a week to provide for us.
And so his Father’s Day present came early this year:
He’s away this week with 6 other guys. On a BABE rally. (And, might I add, still wearing the hat of workin’ man, because he’s working from the road, too.)
I just love saying my hubby’s on a BABE rally and watching the reaction.
Big Apple to Big Easy (BABE). 1500 miles in 5 days in a car worth $500 or less.
Fortunately, the first night’s check-in is close, so he’s home tonight, but off again Tuesday morning dressed as an astronaut. Yes, you read that right.
I still can’t wrap my mind around it all.
But I love it.
Well, I love that HE loves it. And I love him, so I guess I love it, too.
Happy Father’s Day, baby. Here’s to a win for British Rust (Bri’s the one behind the camera)! (And second place for How’s My Hair Look.)
Oh, and in case anyone was wondering, Bella cried for 30 minutes after Bri left on Sunday, finally crying herself to sleep at naptime. Bless her heart, she just can’t stand for things to hurt. And she loves her daddy to pieces.
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Bear’s Belly Laughs
While prepping for his “Wii-Fit exercises”, Bear piped up, “Mom, I put my chapstick on because it helps me think better and do things better. It’s going to be an a-MA-zing workout!”
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While “helping” Brian with grilling, Bear pulled his toy grill out on the deck. At one point he came in, leaned against the counter and wiped his brow. “Grilling is hard work, Mom. I’ve been working so hard.”
I grinned, “You’re grilling up a storm, huh big guy?”
He cocked his head, turned to go back out the door and said matter-of-factly, “No, Mom. I’m grilling burgers.”
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After we read The Three Little Pigs for the umpteenth time, I asked Bear what lesson he could learn from the book. His response?
“If the construction workers were lazy and didn’t build our house strong, then while I was playing the big, bad wolf might come and blow our house down, and then I couldn’t play anymore, and we’d have to run away, and you can’t run very fast, Mom.”
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At lunch one day, Bear was asking all about what animals ate. We finally got to mountain lions, and I was telling him how they eat deer and elk and small mammals like foxes and porcupines and rabbits. Bear listened intently, then asked.
“But what happens if the lion is struck by lightning before he catches his prey?”
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Sunday Selections: Come Messy
From Paul Miller’s, A Praying Life, as quoted on the Of First Importance blog:
“Jesus does not say, ‘Come to me, all you who have learned how to concentrate in prayer, whose minds no longer wander, and I will give you rest.’ No, Jesus opens his arms to his needy children and says, ‘Come to me, all who are weary and heaven-laden, and I will give you rest.’
The criteria for coming to Jesus is messiness. Come overwhelmed with life. Come with your wandering mind. Come messy.”
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Any Calvin & Hobbes Fans Here?
If so, check out this blog by M. S. Corley.
And if you’re anything like me, be prepared to get a little bit choked up.
Amazing!
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I Truly Don’t Know Where She Gets It
Just a couple Bella stories to make your day.
A few months ago while Bri was away, I decided we’d all curl up and watch a movie. The boys chose Finding Nemo. Bella was 2. I figured she’d be fine. She wasn’t old enough to understand what was going on, right? She might get a little scared of the sharks, but we’d get through it. She could sit on my lap and I’ll comfort her and then we’ll be fine, right?
If only I had known.
15 minutes into the movie, Nemo gets captured and taken away in a boat. His daddy, Marlin, swims after him and spends the rest of the movie searching for his son.
15 minutes into the movie, Bella begins wailing.
“What’s wrong, baby?”
Chubby cheeks covered with wetness. Pudgy hands wiping the tears away, pushing red curls from her face. She can barely speak through her sobs.“He got taken fwom his Daddy. Is his daddy going to find him? I want his daddy to find him wight now.”
Oh, how I underestimated my Bella. She spent the entire movie on my lap crying. She could care less about the sharks or the scary angler fish. All she wanted was Marlin to find Nemo. But she wouldn’t let me turn it off or find another movie. She had to know it would all be okay.And when they did find each other? The wails began again.
“It’s okay, Bella.” I soothed, almost frantic by this point. “Look! They found each other.”
“I know, Mommy!” picture those pudgy hands wiping her cheeks again. “I’m just so happy dat I cwy.”
Mind you. She’s TWO!
Oh, but it doesn’t stop there y’all.
Today she and I were running errands. She’s three now and even more dramatic than before. When we arrived at our driveway, she clapped her hands in delight. “Oh!” she shrieked. “It’s our home!” She threw her hands up to her cheeks, open-mouthed. I grinned, watching her in the rear-view mirror. Then I turned as she began to wail, “Oh, we’re home. We’re home. We’re home!”
“What, baby? What’s wrong?”
“Oh, Mommy!” the sobbing, y’all. Oh, the sobbing. “I’m just so happy to have a home!”
I think I’ll end every post about Bella like this:
We’re doomed.

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Wednesday Worship: Lead Me To The Cross
“There is only one place where we can receive, not an answer to our questions, but peace–that place is Calvary. An hour at the foot of the Cross steadies the soul as nothing else can. ‘O Christ Beloved, Thy Calvary stills all our questions.’ Love that loves like that can be trusted about this.”
~Amy Carmichael, Rose From BrierAs I prayed last night for God to show Himself more and more in my life, I realized I was looking in the wrong place. I keep looking at myself, focusing on my feelings, my sins, my triumphs. I base my responses, my victories, my struggles on myself and how God is working in me. And if I fail, then God must not be working, because I can’t see Him. Once again I was convicted… it’s not about me!
If I want to see God more and more in my life, there is only one place I need to look. If I want the Evil One to run, there is only one place I need to look. If I want victory, there is only one place I need to look. If I do any good thing, it is because of the one place I can look.
I long to live daily at the cross.
To gaze at His work and find rest from my own.
To let go of my failing and guilt and find peace.
To conquer evil daily.
It’s there.
At the Cross.
And so every time I pray, I ask Him.
“Lead me to the Cross.”
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Song: Lead Me To The Cross
Artist: Hillsong United
Album: All Of The AboveSavior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lostLead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the crossYou were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
The word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you’re risenTo your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
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Successful Surgery
Via email from Tony, their youngest son:
“Dad’s surgery went great and they were able to clip the aneurysm, which was the optimal outcome. He is in the ICU recovery for the night and will then be moved to regular recovery hopefully tomorrow for the next few days. He is in a good bit of pain and has a big headache and sore throat, but he was in good spirits even though tired and there doesn’t seem to be any residual memory loss. Praise God for his goodness and care. I know Mom and Dad appreciate your prayers and would ask for continued prayer for quick recovery and healing.”
Thank you all for praying!
Thank God for His mercies to this dear family.
To HIM alone be all praise and glory.
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A Request for Prayer
Intercession means that we rouse ourselves up to get the mind of Christ about the one for whom we pray.
~Oswald ChambersThere is a man who is loved dearly by our family. There is a man who is loved even more dearly by his family and others. There is a man who is loved most dearly by Christ.
With John’s permission, I am asking, “Would you rouse yourselves up with me and pray for our friend, John, and his family?”
Tuesday morning he will be undergoing surgery to repair a brain aneurysm. There is risk involved in such a massive operation… there is risk of stroke, brian damage, rupture and death. There is fear. Fear that John is not afraid to admit, but in the midst of his fear, there is faith. Faith that clings to a God who is good no matter what. Faith that knows when he sees his Father face to face, He will know fullness of joy. There is desire. Desire to remain and live life with his loved ones. But there is submission. Submission to the will of God Who has never made a mistake with John’s life.
He is a vibrant man who loves God and his family and friends with a ferocity that is rare. He is in love with his wife and brags about her constantly. She was once my discipler, imparting wisdom weekly to me as I struggled to figure out what marriage and family looked like. And I would give anything to have her wisdom, and a marriage and family like theirs. Three sons, fully grown, who love their Lord and love their family and friends. It’s a family that laughs together and lives together.
I could write about the years we have spent with this family, the hours in their home. But this isn’t about me. This is about John & Angie and their boys.
Would you please intercede with me?
Would you pray for peace for John as he spends this day before the surgery with his loved ones, that fear and anxiety would not find its way into their day?
Would you pray for relief from the attacks of Satan who wants the fear and doubt and unbelief that we all naturally struggle with to pervade?
Would you pray for sweet sleep tonight for John and Angie & their sons as they wait for tomorrow?
Would you pray for skill and precision on the part of the doctor? For a successful surgery and complete and full recovery?
Would you pray that John would live to have many years with his family? To see his oldest son get married in the Fall? Would you pray that this world would be blessed to be impacted by this man’s heart and example and ministry for many more years?
And would you pray for his family? For rest and trust and peace as they watch this man who has been so instrumental in their lives and so many others’ lives suffer?
Would you pray that God would be glorified through all of this? That we could all live in the peace of knowing that John is in the hands of the One Who spoke the universe into existence with a word?
There is more, I know. Please, rouse yourselves up and pray for John.
This is a man who is very dear to us. This is a man who is even more dear to others. This is a man who is most dear to Christ.
How do I know?
Because Christ’s hands are scarred with the name John.
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Sunday Selections: If…?
The critical question for our generation—and for every generation—is this: If you could have heaven, with no sickness, and with all the friends you ever had on earth, and all the food you ever liked, and all the leisure activities you ever enjoyed, and all the natural beauties you ever saw, all the physical pleasures you ever tasted, and no human conflict or any natural disasters, could you be satisfied with heaven, if Christ was not there?
from John Piper’s “God Is The Gospel”
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Wednesday Worship: Peace
As I have struggled to find some sense out of this new normal, I consistently find myself overwhelmed. I get overwhelmed just going to the grocery store because of the hustle and bustle, the cars on busy roads. I get overwhelmed with how cluttered my house becomes, and I can attest to the fact that cluttered surroundings lead to a cluttered mind. I set foot in church and I am overcome by all the noise, the people rushing to classrooms, weaving my way through crowds. I look at the calendar and wonder how I will do it all (and there’s not much on my calendar these days).
There are days I want to scream, “Stop! Everyone just stop! Listen! Listen to the quiet!”
It is hard being overwhelmed so easily. The smallest tasks become obstacles. Going places becomes a burden. Caring for my home becomes a monumental chore.
And in the midst of it all, I want to care for my heart. I want the peace that comes from daily communion with Him. I want to shut out the chatter of the world, the attacks of the Evil One, and the lies of my own heart that tell me I’m incapable, unloved and a burden.
Despair is always hovering on the edge of my mind. I can feel it’s claws pricking away every morning when I force myself out of bed. It is hard to feel like I am merely surviving rather than just living, especially when I am done with treatment. Shouldn’t this all be over? Shouldn’t life be “normal” again?
But in the midst of it all, He comes. As He has promised. He finds me every day in my moments of despair and reminds me… “You can lean against my throne and find My peace.”
Peace.
It’s hard to come by in the craziness of this world and life.
Peace.
It’s offered freely in Him.
Artist: Jennifer Knapp
Song: Peace
Album: Lay It DownHe is my Light and my Salvation
Whom have I to fear
In His secret place i’ll hide and pray
That I might hear
A simple wordO how I would have despaired
If You had not come found me there
I can lean against Your throne and find my Peace
Find my PeaceAnd when my enemies draw near
I pray that they will find
That I’m protected and secure
All tempests He will bind
With a mighty wordO how I would have despaired
If You had not come found me there
I can lean against Your throne and find my Peace
Find my PeaceHe is my Light and my Salvation whom have i to fear?